I really do not blame you! I am one of those who have trouble grieving over things, too. I don't know if it's me questioning my own mortality. I think mine's more selfishness of wanting the people who have passed to be with me forever. I wouldn't say I'm afraid to die, since I often welcome the invitation sometimes.

It seems like when we think we're over something the most, something occurs when we realize we haven't even begun to be over it! I really do hate that part.