((((((Tree)))))))) Your post is one of the most inspirational writings I have read in many years. Thank you very much for sharing your journey!

You said "And I realized later that T came into the darkness and GOT ME. No one has ever done that. It felt DIFFERENT. Different, and scary, and good. T did see me. And he pulled me out.

I spent so many years hiding in the dark, not EVER expecting to be seen, not EVER expecting to be found. Today, I just wanted to rest and be alone...I didn't know I WANTED T to reach in and get me. "

That is just blowing me away! That is very awesome!!!