Thanks for the support esther, unforunately I have no friends to do things with. That is the result of my isolating for so long. I would be too uncomfortable trying to act "normal" right now anyway. Thank God I have you ppl here! You are so supportive.
Sky, you are right, I guess it is explaining how desparate I am feeling, especially for after the holidays. She had given me her home and cell phone numbers a long time ago, and she is ok with me using them if I really need to (of course not without putting huge guilt on myself). I guess I will have to ask her about the holiday break, since I have been seeing her twice a week and can barely make it through the in-between times sometimes.
I hope you both have a wonderful holiday season. I am so grateful to have this site with all the great, supportive people. Love ya. HUGS!