I understand the feeling of thinking about something, something I said or she said from session, then feeling like this >> and thinking, oh my goodness, I don't want to go back, I feel stupid/ashamed/embarrassed/vulnerable, I can't handle her seeing me like this anymore.......but all I can say to you is, keep going, keep going!! Take your blanket, your music, your journal, sit wherever/however you please, and just be, just be there with your feelings.....it is your therapy and your right to do those things!