First, I'm sorry that I haven't been around more to offer support to all of you. I hope that after you read this entry you'll understand why and forgive me.

This week has been the week from you know where. First it was finals week and I have four exams that are essay exams. Second, my friend waws in a car accident on saturday and is still in the hospital because he's coughing up blood. Third, I wrote down the wrong date for one of my finals and therefore I missed it so unless my teacher allows me to make it up, I'll have a D in that class... which I can't afford if i'm going to bring my GPA up enough to be able to get into grad school. Fourth, my last therapy appointment was supposed to be wednesday but I woke up late and managed to miss it when I really needed to talk to her. Fifth, it's my LAST therapy appt with my T. She is the main thing getting me through and this is the last appointment i can have with her. After this I'm supposed to go into group or something but i am completely fragmented when thinking about not being able to see her anymore. Everything is falling apart and I don't know what to do. Also, I'm like flat broke and I have to find a job.

I just don't know what to do. any suggestions?

I'll keep you updated on how this all goes... I just wish i could crawl under my bed and never come back out. sigh.


just one more shadow among shadows