sometimes googley when i try too hard it doesn't turn out as well as i want. try to be gentle and kind to yourself  ..it may not be you that has/owns the prob.!!!
i recall in college i kept studying like a turk for this one prof. i even went to her concerned cause i wasn't doing well-it was my major so that REALLY worried me. she just looked at me like i had 2 heads. i finally gave up, sold my textbook and next exam i set the grade curve!!! so i was just trying too hard. does that make sense?
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