[quote=clouds_and_sun;1678111]I just wish I knew how to feel numb. To not desire to fall in love during certian times of the month. To not allow people to upset me so much cause of my past. (I was pushed around almost all my life).

It sounds like you are going through an identity pains. You are not alone.all teens go through this in one from or another. You will find that it subsides as you go through life and accept it's challenges.You will find you learn,and become stronger.You have have your parents for support,you are blessed some people do not.Your parents,or anyone, won't be able to help you unless you share with them what you are experiencing,you must acknowlege your feelings.
I hope this will help
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