Tuesday my DH and I had this heartfelt romantic night together. Wednesday, he came home from work with all this extra energy. He said his body was moving and moving, but his mind was tired. He scrubbed the house, made dinner, paced around. By Friday, he was grouching and snapping at me. Saturday was my birthday, and he treated me pretty crappy. Yesterday he was home with our children all day. I found him at 7pm on the couch in his pjs. The kids were still in pjs. my littlest was in a SOAKED diaper. I had to make dinner and feed them because he hadn't moved. When I finally tried to talk to him, he went back to the same old story. He loves me but is not IN love with me. The feelings he had LAST MONTH have gone away..a.nd he's trying his hardest to sort it out.

Idon't know how much more of this I can take. I see the cycle. I want to tell myself that his feelings will come back when his mood stabilizes. But how long will that take? And how much more damaged will I be in the end?

he has is psych evaluation on February 10th to hopefully get his official DX. Our therapist is leaning towards BP2. I feel like I owe it to our family to stay long enough to see how he does with a dx and a tx. But I hate being treated so awful. I deserve better than a husband who loves me one week and dispises me the next.

I'm lost.