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Originally Posted by Distressed2010
Thankyou Leed, for sharing that with me. I can completely understand what you mean. Both of my sisters, who are elder to me, have always been so mean to me, saying really bad things to me, but for each other, they've been so nice and giving. They'd steal my things.
If my parents protected me, they'd get after my parents and say they only are on my side.
Hah! my eldest sister even TESTED me one day when she brought a fish food, claiming it was chicken. I had allergies towards sea food and one bright day, her husband (the prick who sexually molested me) decided that my allergy was probably psychological so they should test me on it. Luckily i didn't get sick because later in life, i found out, I was allergic to shell fish only, not general fish. But still, that episode stayed with me for years, and that's just one of a million episodes that I had with both my sisters. I couldn't trust people for years! i still can't but I'm trying to open up and do that slowly now... gotta start somewhere!
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And also, I think she already knows I don't like her because we do have this tension between us. But if I say that, then my mom will try to make me feel guilty about it by saying "see what you did. What if you need something from her. Stop breaking relations!"
And also my therapist said You can't pick family.. but you can pick your friends. I dont' talk to my eldest sister any more but Mona I'm only in touch with in terms of when she's over at my parents place thats all. I don't call her ever, don't go shopping with her, or anywhere.. she goes on her own. Actually she won't ever take me with her friends because she's always scared they'd like me and start being friends with me, and i dont know why due to her own insecurities she doesn't want me to have them as friends. I feel like she's always competing with me and getting jealous of friends that I have or of my personality so I dont share anything with her anymore at all.