Improving...I am so sorry that you are dealing with this right now. With my old T, the relationship sort of tapered off and I didn't need her as much. I also had been going to her for over 6 years and it was more of a friendship than therapy...there was no real attachment. But with my current T, I am terrified of leaving...I can't even stand it when he goes on vacation. I hope this changes eventually but right now I've learned to accept it. I don't want to think about him not being my therapist some day...not until I am ready.

This must be so painful for you...sometimes I think the T/client relationship can be more confusing and hurtful than its worth. BUT, I KNOW IT DOES MORE GOOD THAN BAD AND IT IS FOR THE BEST IN THE LONG RUN. Eventually, we will realize the effect it has had and find use for the tools we've learned. I sincerely hope you will continue therapy if you still feel you're not done...either with trying to reconcile with your T or finding a new one. Please do not try to endure this just to be strong or because you "should" try to handle it alone. It is OK to ask for more help, you have every right to be happy and healthy. Good luck and lots of hugs