You are right....you are not a bad person for the choices you make....you are the one that God is directing....you are the one that God is providing the opportunities to. The only listening you need to do is to listen to God directing your life.....it doesn't matter what anyone else says or does.....only God's directions are the ones that count.

God would not provide you with this opportunity if it wasn't something that was meant for you to do....just because it's a bit difficult.....God uses difficulties to help us in our understanding.....this is a good thing. God will not provide you with more than you can handle.....or handle with the help of others who are supporting you.

I am sure that if there comes a time when God feels that being involved in the foster care system is too much for you.....He will let YOU know. It's only when we try to push things to be against God's will that we run into trouble.......Not something that is happening at this point I'm sure. Too many times others don't know what's going on between you & God.......& the directions He is giving YOU....it's important to just let go of those things that others say along those lines & don't hold onto them or them they cause doubt in your own mind. Remember....you life & your decisions are between YOU & GOD....not anyone else (except for adding your daughter into that decision process)

Stay strong & keep your T going that helps give you the strentgh you need to handle all that is going on in your life. It's still important to look after yourself in the #1 position because if you become unable to function.......as that can definitely ruin the ability to fulfill your passion.

Trust in the Lord always & follow His will......then you will never fail to accomplish God's purpose for you.