My thoughts right now are: I am NEVER, EVER going to take anything with me again (that is IF I go back, which you know I will). If I take something, it will be something I put in my pocket that she cannot see.

HHhhhmmm......is there an analogy to that? Am I trying to hold onto the control, but hiding it at the same time? Am I keeping this a secret because I think I am 'getting back at her' by bringing something in there that she doesn't know about? Is this my way of saying, "I'll show you, I am going to do what I want to do and you can't stop me!"

Again, childish games. It is not hurting her one bit for me to do these things, it is hurting me. Stubborn? Controlling? Why does she think that about me? LaDuh! Read my posts and you can plainly see that she is right! Sometimes I hate her......don't we always hate it when the other person is right!