I am really good at pushing very one away from me in my life but with therapy and the support of my family I realized that I don't need to push people away and its ok to feel feelings. My hubby is away at training and before he left he thanked me for not pushing him away and thats when i realized all the times before when he had to go away I pushed him away because it was easier to do. I thought he may find someone better than me or what if he was killed I worried a lot because of my fear of being abandoned. See I never thought I was good enough for anyone and my self esteem is crap. My body image isn't much better but I am finally realizing there is hope and with everyones support people can change with time and with the help of others. I hope this also gives hope to other people out there. Everyone here gives great advice and support when needed and im blessed that my friend in my bipolar support group gave me this connection because it is also helping me.