I can't really find a better word...I just feel lost.

I met with at T at my school on Monday just to explore my options incase my insurance runs out and I can't meet as often with my current T. The school T was very nice and asked good questions but it made me even more confused about what to do.

Then, yesterday I saw my T and it felt a little "off". That connection I posted about last week...totally gone. I felt like he was sick of talking about the twice a week issue (so am I) and just wanted to move on. I just felt like I lost that excitement and eagerness to be present and work on things. I want to find that again because I don't want my sessions twice a week to be a waste! We talked a little about what our goals should be to meet more often. We both want to work on my SI and obviously try to find other ways for me to cope, along with helping me to be comfortable with my dependency and neediness. I left feeling very "blah". The session was a bit all over the place and I thought I would have little more clarity about what to do with my school T and whether or not going twice a week to my current T was a good idea.

I am still so lost and confused! I feel like I don't have a connection with anyone right now, and I'm on T overload! I need some advice, feeback or just some support...