Hi everybody.. I just joined this site today.. Hoping it will help...

I have been living with the same man for 8years (on and off) The same man who use to tell me that I was the ugliest girlfriend he ever had.. The same guy who use to make rude, degrating comments about me sexually. The same guy who never looks at me and who touches me as little as possible. I use to think I was pretty, I use to enjoy getting fixed up everyday, now I have a difficult time getting in the shower.. Even if I do put on make up I don't see anything pretty about me anymore.. I have gained 20lbs, I'm need dental work but have no insurance, I avoid going anywhere because I feel that everyone is looking at me because I am so unattractive... I sit at home everyday and cry.. I feel like I am going to die... I know that as soon as my workers comp runs out he is going to leave me... I am scared that I will be homeless soon... I just dont know what to do to get out of this funk. Although he doesn't talk to me that way anymore, I can't get over his hurtful words.. I have no where to run. Bill collecters calling me everday, can't find a job because I don't have enough confidence in myself to even look.. I just want to die..