I spoke with our counselor tonight, and she gave me encouragement to wait it out, we could survive. It feels impossibly living in an awkward household where we don't touch, we don't look at each other, we don't show the affection we always have. We're the couple that say I love before we leave, when we get home, every phone call. I have trouble functioning this way.

Do you think its too much to continue to tell him I love him and will stand by him...when he thinks he's not in love with me? When he stabilizes (either when his cycle ends, or when hes medicated..whatever comes first) that he still has me there, and he hasn't screwed up past fixing....but I also don't want him to feel rushed or pushed while he's depressed.

I feel like I should hate him for his behavior and harsh words...but I just feel sorry for him. He says, "how would you feel if you woke up one day and hated your life, you family, your job, your wife, and you wanted everyone to LEAVE YOU ALONE, but you didn't want to be alone?" What an awful feeling that must be.

Words of wisdom? How do I show him support without being too pushy?