I wish I had suggestions for you... but I am in exactly the same place. only I haven't been able to even bring myself to write it down, let alone say it allowed to myself or anyone else..
maybe take what you've written down with you and show your T?
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wife. mom. swimmer. writer.
trying to live life in spite of depression, dissociation, and PTSD.
member of a club that no one wants to join...