my goal is to go home and hug him (we haven't touched since the day before he said it....my birthday). I want to tell him, "I love you. I took vows when I married you that I would love you through sickness and through health. Your words hurt me, but deep downin my heart I don't believe them to be true. I truly believe this down will pass, and I will be here with you until it does. I'm here if you need me. I'll give you space if you ask for it. We can spent time as a family if you need it, or you can take evenings to youself if you want it. Share with me what you need, and I'll try my hardest to give it you and still love you."

That may be the hardest and most brave speech of my life. Wish me luck.