Ah, so many times we fool ourselves into thinking that infatuation is actually love......love really only comes after a long time of knowing someone....it grows out of respect & showing TRUE caring for the other person......true caring means doing things for the other person even when we don't want to, or making the changes that are necessary to make the relationship work. His term of love needs to be equated to lust.......I know that you know all of this as you have actually stated it yourself. It is amazing how sometimes we really don't want to accept the reality of the situations we know is exists. We can definitely care about someone & wish in our minds that they would turn out to be something we know they really aren't. Shoot, I even felt that way about my husband after being married to him for 33 years. Just couldn't see how he could not want to make the changes that were always necessary to make the marriage work......but they always seem to hope that we will just continue tolerating things as they are. Some aren't able to make the huge changes that are necessary & some are just too lazy (my husband falls into the later situation).

I am sorry that you allowed your heart to fall so hard for someone you had been warned so strongly about. Sometimes it's a good thing to really listen to those around us. They definitely see things a lot more clearly than we do when we become emotionally involved.

You are right....time will pass & this will be only a small memory of events that have occurred in your life. I have found that unless the situation is a serious trauma that we go through, things end up etched in our memories in the same amount of time that we are involved. The shorter the involvement, the shorter the memory ends up engraved in our minds.

Think this was a good thing as it pushed you into the move to Vegas sooner than you might have if you hadn't gotten involved with him. There are always good things that come in our life even when we go through things that aren't the best for us.

You are a survivor.....you will definitely survive this also.....just keep focusing on your move & getting your life organized for the move & it will help put these thoughts in the background. Yes, it's always nice to have someone we can be close with....it's a human nature thing......but it's interesting for me....after being away from my husband now for over 3 years.....I have no desire to be close to him or anyone else in a way other than as good friends....it's definitely a very freeing feeling for me not to have my happiness dependent on any other human being. Funny thing is that I have never been happier in my life.

Hope you will be able to find the place where you can find your own happiness also.