I've been seeing T twice a week for a long time, and there have been times when I've felt this little bit of extra pressure...like "if I REALLY need to be here this much, I better prove it and get a lot of work done". And of course, that pressure leads to disconnect and confusion and stress (for me, anyhow)

I wonder if you can just go without worrying whether it's a waste, and just let whatever happens happen?? Sometimes I pray on the way to T, and ask that I will be able to do the work I need to do during the session, and be guided in some way to know what that is. And I go, and just sit and try to open my heart and let whatever is in there come out. And it's hard, but it's real, and the more real things are, the more connected I tend to feel.

You deserve to go twice a week, and every session doesn't have to be perfect. EVERY. SESSION. COUNTS. We are growing and changing and learning under the surface, even when nothing "big" is happening. Even this...you went, you're thinking about your session, you feel lost, you want to maybe find a way to find the connection again. That is movement. That is learning.

Therapy is so hard and so confusing sometimes. You're doing a good job.

Be gentle with you