I have been so depressed that I couldn't stand to hear music because it was too emotional and I couldn't stand to have anyone touch me at all or I would totally shatter.

There have been times when I pushed away the people closest to me because I thought I wasn't in a good enough place for them or because I didn't feel worthy of being loved and sometimes because sub-consciously I irrationally resented that they couldn't heal my pain. Of course that was always when I needed them the most.

It's amazing how supportive you are of your partner and I know how hard that is sometimes. It's hard to tell when "go away" means exactly the opposite.