Depo provera is three months of hormones shot into your body at once. I don't care if it is supposed to slowly release I think it's highly likely to mess with you.

Nothing you've written indicates that you aren't meant to be a parent. Your child knows that they are loved and wanted, not enough children know that they are loved and wanted.

Even very small children are incredibly sensitive to their parent's mental status and your kid is okay being on the phone with you while watching TV. Which means the kid is NOT stressing out about how YOU are doing which is a pretty good indication that your kid is okay and you are not, in fact, a bad parent.