ok, I decided to give therapy another chance.... well, reluctantly but the point is I told someone and I have #'s to call... I went once b/f for a very short time but it was a very bad match; things just got worse and I didn't trust the therapist. but here's the problem: the therapist I could see has a private practive which means it will cost a lot of $. I would have to pay for it myself and I only have limited amounts of $. The amount that 10 or 20 sessions would come to sounds like A LOT, but in all honesty, even that amount probably won't be enough... how can I expect to be "fixed" after 10 sessions? unrealistic I know. What do I do?????? I don't want to go see someone who lacks a background in ed's. But I am also sick & tired of dealing with this (I've had an ed since many years now). I could consider another option at a hospital which would cost nothing but the waiting lists are humungous and there are a few other reasons why I'd rather not go there.

what do I do?????? is it worth spending almost all my $ for therapy? I am so desperate I don't know what to do. I can't spend all my $, I also have to pay for other things. sigh. please, anyone?