Just had a realization... again... It's been this way my whole life, having to beg, grovel and crawl for any little scrap just to be turned down simply or getting kicked in the teeth. Only thing I can say for myself is that I'm TENACIOUS!! It's time to open the jaws and let the bite go, time to forget it all and like Sleep said, just BE. I'll just BE with ME. To blazes with everybody else. No more begging and getting nothing and IF I do, it just isn't worth it when all is said and done.

When my husband left me almost 8 yrs ago and I was disillusioned with a love right after that, I swore to myself that from then on, I'd be #1 or I wouldn't be at all. It's time to put that into practice.

Give me what's in your heart to give but if there's nothing there, well... I'll have to live with it somehow. So be it!