So I've made a friend through an internet site. We initially started talking because both of us wanted nothing more than an email buddy while we both were at work. After all, I'm still married.... but just finding the financial means to actually go through the divorce. He is married, with a 16 month old daughter, and another on the way that was unplanned. Turns out, the wifey decided that since her friends and family were pregnant, she should get pregnant too.

So, he and I met up the other day. He works with the public in the health field, and is as sweet as could be. I was nervous, he was nervous, and he was even more self conscious because of his hearing aids. He said he was afraid to tell me about them because he didn't want me to run away.

After three meetings with him, I feel, not love, but deep concern and care. We email and text all evening, and my heart aches when I find out that his wife is so demeaning to him. She doesn't want him touching her now that she's pregnant. She makes fun of his hearing aids. She doesn't treat him with the respect that a man like him deserves: who works two jobs, and comes home and takes care of his daughter and the house, pays bills, takes care of the house, all while she sits on her butt watching Game Show Networks.

He called me so angry in tears yesterday and said that he has had it with the wife. He was at work for 10 hours yesterday, and came home to his daughter crying. She'd been in a soiled diaper that was WELL past time to change, and he changed her, and she just clung on to him for dear life. The wife said that the little girl's diaper smell was too much for her "pregnant smells" to handle, so she couldn't change her. So, that little girl was just sitting in her own waste because mommy wouldn't/couldn't change her, and wouldn't call anyone for help or anything.

I'm very good at reading people, and he wouldn't have called me at work last night in angry tears to tell me that if he was lying about the whole thing. I believe everything he's telling me.

Why are my emotions running so hard for this guy? I've talked to him for just over a week, and I feel so connected to him. His texts and emails make me smile. Seeing him just makes me feel like a teenager on a first date.... ugh.

Damn me and my emotions.