I am so happy that you hadn't chosen to take that last step and injure the body.I relate deeply to the coping cutter.You coped this time with out the cutting.I hope you hug you for that!It indeed does sound easy...I cringed whilst I typed it in... for fear of that.I want to think you will force an attempt to try some distractions .((((Hug hug hug))))).You matter!