(((((((((MMOS))))))))))) I'm sorry that things are so complicated and that you're going through this emotional turmoil. I can see how intense mutual feelings could develop quickly between you and your friend in this situation. I can also understand how confusing this must feel.

I'm really sorry that your husband is not open to the idea of marriage counseling. Are you seeing an individual counselor? You have so much on your plate and so many strong feelings going on. I hope there is some way for you to talk some of this through with a therapist.

Hugs to you ((((((((((((MMOS))))))))))))