On a lighter note, Rayna, surround yourself with positive people. Part of recovery is having a strong support system. If you don't have a strong support system, PLEASE try finding one. Doesn't have to be family, can be friends, a sponser, people in your AA group, etc, etc... Keep yourself around these positive people. Even if that means more meetings and less alone time. Sometimes alone time is good but other times it can be a relapse trigger. So during those times, surround yourself with that positive support network. Wish you the best as always, sweetie!