wow!, I almost thought I had written this post, but didn't remember or something!! I JUST went through the same hyperventilation/shaking thing. My whole body felt cold, and everything started to get dark. I was also crying so badly. I just finished posting something about it in the depression forum, and then read this. I too am on the recieving end of a considerable amount of emotional abuse, mostly from my mom. Let me just say that when I had been away from my mother for a little over a year, I drastically improved. How close are you to your friend? I also used to be in a very abusive friendship when I was younger. Finally, something in me boiled, and I told her off, and we were never friends again. Have you ever heard of "toxic" people? I believe there is even a book written on it. Sometimes, it's just better to not have these people in your life. If someone makes you feel that way, I don't think they are good for your health. Take care of yourself, k? and don't feel selfish for doing so.