I would love to get help. I don't want to live this way, but then who does!I don't have insurance, and I just don't know where to begin to look. Plus Im scared that if my boyfriend knew how screwed up I really am, he will leave........ He is such a happy go lucky person.. He has awesome parents and had the dream childhood (popular, football star, did well in school etc..) As soon as he returns from work I put on a happy face and try my hardest to pretend that nothing is wrong....... I will admit, it is becomeing more difficult..