She's driving me insane.

Ok, my partner got the cat from a shelter before she and said cat moved in with me. I knew about it, knew it would make it harder to find a place to rent but for some reason I said yes.

The cat is gorgeous. she is cute and playful and just like a cat should be. But she makes me so angry.

I don't even know why, I just find myself getting in a rage when she's naughty and I pick her up with this unthinking need to strangle her, shake her. Then I get all tearful and try to spoil her with food and pats. I don't understand. And then I tell myself, "see, this is why you'd be a bad mother, you can't even handle a cat! You'd be locked up, you aren't fit for anything!"

The other problem is, I have mobility issues and balance problems, and the cat has tripped me up on a couple of occasions. I ended up with a nasty giant bruise just last week when she got underfoot.

And they say pets are supposed to be good for you.

I don't know what to do. My partner doesn't know how the cat makes me feel, she'd probably say I was being silly.