With my safety net of hospitalazion gone, I feel worse than ever....

I feel so afraid of myself right now. I have no idea how to keep myself safe...
All hospitals besides Lifestream Behavioral Health are hours away, and all I have heard are bad reviews....

I found them on facebook, but I don't trust their page. I feel so lost. I wish there was a way to confirm the reviews or another hospital. There may be one 38 minutes away, and one in Mount Dora (I live in Sumter county Florida.) But All the others are at least an hour away...