All of the stress is killing me. I’m in therapy and trying but nothing seems to help anymore. My SI is worse than ever before. I don’t know what to do. I lie to friends, my family doesn’t give a ****, my roommates are drunk all of the time and I don’t have the money to move out quite yet. Every time things seem to be better they just get worse and worse. I don’t know why I’m even still alive anymore. I’m surprised I have survived this long. I’m back to drinking and SI both. I know I can’t keep living like this but it is all I know.