Thank you so much for your replies ((((((((((Bmee2))))))))) and ((((((((((purpleflyingmonkeys)))))))))). I know you are both struggling in the moment too, and am grateful for the support you have shared.

I can't tell you how much I needed to hear your words PFM. I cried when I read them, and felt awed that my friends here at PC know me better than my irl family. I am currently struggling with decisions my irl family have made that go against every fibre of my being, every cell in body rejects what they want me to accept. And I reject their decision because, and for, my children. I have learned steeply about 'easy' decisions and 'right' decisions. My family believe I am making a 'hard' decision, when I believe it is simply the 'right' one. Protection of my children, their safety and well being, comes before all else. They didn't ask to be here, and I will never blindly allow a situation to occur which would make them not want to be here. Like what was done to me. My family, through their 'easy' decision, are permitting the potential grooming of a second generation of pain. I have to tell my family goodbye. For my children.

Such betrayal of late. First husband, then mother and sister. No one left to hurt me so deeply now. I guess that is looking on bright side. No one will be so close to me again. Ever.

Thank you my friends.