We have a very good relationship. He is currently homebound because of severe social anxiety. We have long talks...I don't think he is hiding anything from me. He is passively suicidal. I tell him how much I love him and tell him to stick around because things can get better. He tells me he doesn't know where all this sadness comes from. He just doesn't expect very much from life...that is what worries me the most. I have spent so much time just existing and never enjoying life...I think I accidentally taught him that it hurts to be alive and so that is what he expects