I'm pretty uncomfortable admitting this and I'm not sure if it is this right place... I want to be asexual. I want to have a female circumcision and mastectomy. I have a long history of sexual abuse that started at a young age. When people look at me, I don't want them to see a female or have any sexual thoughts. I want to be genderless. I am married and when I told my husband what I was thinking - he thought I was a freak. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just think life would be easier if I could remove the body parts that were used to torture me. I've burned my hands in the past and it brought such relief, like I was sanitizing the contamination. I want that feeling again - to be clean