I wish I had an excuse too. I should have seen a problem coming. I noticed a huge increase in negative thoughts and some suicidal thoughts. Did I do anything? I just stepped up my correcting of negative thoughts. Maybe I should have tried to de-stress or talk with a friend about what was bothering me. Then I might have prevented my getting squirrlier than usual. I could have saved me some money and my insurance a lot of money for therapy. Why did I allow myself to stress out to the point of not being able to sleep normal for a month and a half? If it is stress related like the T thinks, why can't I find a way to get back to sleeping like a normal person? I think I just might give myself a huge cold or something. I am probably hurting my immune system will all this. If I should be able to find a way to sleep, is it my fault that I can't seem to do it?