Hi
I have been suffering from depression for 10 years now. Generally speaking I'm quite better. BUt I know that I still have some issues. One of the most difficult symptoms that I have to deal with is the lack of energy.

The thing is, about a month ago my doctor prescribed me 1mg of Xanax per day. But this was only when during the first week before my menstruation. What I noticed with this pill was something different. It has such a great impact on me that I almost become another person. I feel so much better, I feell energyzed, and I'm really sweet with people. Maybe this is the real me. But the sad thing is that when its effect goes away I feel bad again. And this angers me. I think of all the potential I have but I can't use it.

Please, I would like to know if I can reach that "normal" state without xanax. Is it possible to feel energyzed and enthusiastic just by using Cognitive Therapy, or meditation? Please help me! How can I become my real me? I don't feel high with xanax. I just feel "normal"...Please help