seems like this thread has been neglected. I know all the holidays and stuff has kept me away. Just needed to put it out there; I have been bouncing for weeks now- focused and wanting to get stuff done ( and doing it), yet forgetting that I shouldn't be doing that stuff with my health ( shoveling for 2 hours was WAY to much). then I am crying because of all that is going wrong ( won't go into details- hubby, son and finances are all a part); so I talk with my pDOC- who always says to call for an "emergency appointment" if I can't wait the month or so- they had an appointment two days earlier- but that was 3 weeks from now! So they had him call me and I talked with him- we decided to go back onto one of the meds I was on over a year ago- helps me to sleep and help with my pain as well- and a cheap generic because it has been around so long. Than he says he wants to put me on Lithium- yeah I am Diagnosed BiPolar- but I feel like that is for more extreme cases; but I felt so bad I said yes- at least until my next appt. Now I am sleeping better and the ups and downs are not as extreme- but I feel like I did before- numb, no focus, no energy, down thoughts, that seem to be the only thoughts I can keep my mind on track with.

To make matters worse my t had to cancel for family emergency and said she would call and didn't- I am sure y'all can know where my paranoia took me there!!

OK enough griping, gonna play a bit on the computer then see if I can focus on a book I got out of the library.