I have been on short term disability for a month while I try to pull myself together. I had hoped I would be in a better place by now. I work third shift and I'm due back at work on Tuesday night. I'm scared. My boss is insensitive and a bully.
The pressure is unbelievable. My husband lost his job a year ago and that put me in the role of primary breadwinner and sole provider of insurance benefits. While my husband, thankfully, found another job - it is not close to what he was doing before.
My 2 sons and I need medication and therapy, so insurance is really important right now. I can't jeopardize my job. I am so overwhelmed. Flashbacks have started again full steam and dark thoughts fill my head.
I'm worried about the well-being of my sons. Honestly, when is it enough?
I'm worried I won't be able to focus at work and I'm worried about how my boss will treat me. If I cry, he will write me up for unprofessional behavior. Sometimes the tears just come.
What if I can't do it all?
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