I am not a communist, but one of my favorite quotes is by Carl Marx. "Religion is the opiate of the masses". I formed my own religious beliefs around the age of fifteen. They're basically the same now and I'm old as dirt. As far as waiting to rebel, hindsight is 20/20. Leed gives wonderful advice. Me, not so much. But I do genuinely care about your pain. So, keep listening to the all wise and kind Leed.