I got a 195 recently so I am right up there with you. Things have gotten so much worse over the last two weeks, I hate to think how bad it would be now. I like to continue with my delusion (at least my doc says it's delusion) that it's not me; it's everyone else. I just have to keep asking myself if things are real or not. I really don't know but I just keep going. Sometimes there is no other choice. Good luck! Maybe take it again when you are feeling better and more "normal". My doc says not to test when you are stressed out.