not to alarm you but a symptom i had on xanex (i mg) was being almost in another state of mind. i thought this was good until ppl made me aware that there were periods of time when i was with them that i had no recollection of at all. it was also said that it was like i was another person. i pshawed this at first but later realized they were right.
my pdoc put me on klonopin and i didn't have this side affect. personally i never will take xanex again. but that is not to say you shouldn't take it. but my experience was a little frightening.
i do believe you can feel better. therapy (cbt) for me worked wonders cause i had so many negative triggers that set off my depression. i learned how to have better coping skills in situations, boundary setting, and new tools to use in my life. meds certainly help me but both therapy and meds as a combination keep me more balanced.
hope my experience will provide you with hope for the future.