Bipolar does a number on us. I certainly have suffered a huge amount of losses due to it. And I look back and wonder how my life would have gone, if I had been properly diagnosed. This is the first Christmas in years that I've even remotely cared about it. I lost so much by doing something really stupid..when I divorced, we used the same lawyer. That pretty much cut me off at the knees. I have a small house on a ranch and my truck....some clothes, some antiques and my pets. Every time I have to drive past the big clinic that the ex built with my retirement I want to throw up or cry. Usually I cry. I feel it, Davey. xoxoxo pat