siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh..

wish i could say i was well. Sadly, Im not. Im trying to figure out how to live after the loss of my son to <insert expletives> CPS who assumed because im physically disabled im not well enough to care for him.(which, by the way - i never attested - I simply asked for help, assistance, or to place him with someone i knew, but now that someone within the church has offered, they are fighting us)

aaaanyway, im possibly facing a diagnosis of MS. Im a little better with some pain treatment now, but I am discouraged. The other night I woke, went to get up, and realized my left leg was again completely numb and useless - down on my face. Its happening more and more sadly.

moving to a transition house for a few days tomorrow. Then my family has essentially told me I am too expensive, and to move on. so a friend has offered to take me in otherwise i would be homeless.

its so discouraging. But trying to have faith.