darling jewels, thanks so much for replying.

Im in Canada though, so its a little(but not totally) different up here - alot of your advice still applies though just with diff acronyms.

Unfortunately, im at the end of my fight for my son. Theres already an order for permanent care and therefore not much I can do - but what I can, you better beleive I am doing.

Beleive it or not when i asked for home care I got TWO HOURS every two weeks. What in the HECK is that supposed to do? Doc wanted me to have 2 hours a DAY...it just was not available.

I do need to contact salvation army and united way though - thats good ideas!

interestingly enough i also have DDD - three discs ruptured now(and Kyphoscoliosis which are both mild, but aggravate each other enough to be massively painful)

i will qualify for disability here once ive moved into the transition house though which is helpful. They will advocate because until now they have been trying to tell me i can find SOME kind of work - there is no work here I can do or id be doing it. Its small small small here, less than 900 ppl where I live currently and only around 10000 where im going.

I just am so discouraged by all this. I feel like the world has given up on me. Dont give up on me because I havent given up yet