Right now she is doing what she always does - watching dvd's, chatting online to her friends on Twitter and Facebook. She's a multi-tasker, except when it comes to me. she does this constantly - she comes home from work straight to the computer. She seems to live there. Lying on the couch in her little on screen world. I do the "hey babe, how was your day?" thing, and...nothing more than a "fine", or "it was boring", or "this jerk called up..." No kiss hello, no asking how my day was.

She can stay there all day. It is as if she prefers talking to her online friends more than me. I am so scared to bring it up though. I sat next to her today (Sunday means she can stay on the computer ALL day), for nearly an hour. She doesn't look at me, she continues laughing at the show she's watching. I start crying, she doesn't notice. I am invisible. I don't know what to say to her...oh well, actually, I DO, but I am mute, the words won't come out, I so want to say "look, turn off the show, stop talking on Twitter and talk to me, your girlfriend, the one who loves you and tries so hard for you."

I don't know what to do. I hate myself for not being stronger and just dealing with this.