Thanks again - it's so nice to have this much support and understanding! I look forward to seeing what you all have to say - it is just so nice to be able to say stuff that i've been needing to say for ages and get advice but not go through all the consquences of telling people out here (i haven't told my parents about the doctors trip - i would have if it had been anything but now there isn't much point - plus it's too hard). And anyway, I'm feeling so much better now, it seems as if it was all a dream. I'm still embarassed about telling my doctor because it's probably just the usual teenage stuff of not fitting in but now it's on my permanent records - but i'm sure i'll get over it in time. I'm feeling so much better because i have you guys to talk to and other "virtual people". Getting it out into the "open" is so theraputic n helps me bounce ideas off people n put things into perspective. I had a nice Christmas, felt lonely in the morning and slightly reclusive n i'm sorry but i used sissors to scratch myself - but i won't do it again, it was just that curiosity got the better of me. It's nothing!
So anyway, i will keep on visiting this site n asking questions n sharing now and then but for now i'm happy again - i'm feeling excitment about going out with my friends - which makes me feel fab. Thank you all so much for your time, consideration and advice - you have helped me more than you can imagine! Hope you all had a nice Christmas and that the New Year brings you the happiness you all deserve! Love Abby.