I am so sorry you are going through this. I don't think you are a freak. If something was used to hurt you, it only makes sense for you to want it to be taken away.

One thing that I was thinking when I read you post, though, is how much do you think this course of action would help in the long run? Even if the body parts were removed, you will still be dealing with the memories. You can't take away the feelings by doing that.

After what you have been through, it does not seem strange to me that you would want to do this, but I think before you decide and really get serious about it, it would be a good idea to really think about why you are doing it and what you hope to get from it. From there, think about if there is any way to get it otherwise and if you are really going to get those things from a circumcision.

I think your idea of writing it down and giving it to your therapist is a good one. You could even try emailing it or sending a physical letter if you don't want to see him read it in front of you or hand it over to him.