I screwed up pretty bad and have been drinking for about a week. I finally stopped ysterday and am feeling pretty bad physically, and for relapsing.

I do know what triggered it, but bottom line I just wanted to be drunk more than I wanted to be sober.

This is stupid - I know I'm loads better off sober than drunk & I can't afford to screw up my new job.

Going to drag myself to a meeting tonight.

So I guess it's starting over at day one yet again for the umpteenth time.

--splitimage